12.06.2024 Co-existence, reality

Temporal co-existence of intense feelings and external messaging about my shortcomings and validation of my strengths is something i’m not yet able to process without becoming semi-paralyzed. Historically, within a specific time period in my life, it’s always been one or the other, especially from external messaging. But now it’s both. And this feels/is far more real. Active proximity to reality requires practice to not become paralyzation in proximity to reality.